Monday, January 14, 2008


Saturday, while shopping at "Little Safeway" with Rojo, we walked by a display of knives, and I almost grabbed one and threw it in my cart.

"I need to replace that person's big knife I broke," I thought to myself.

Then, before my compulsion won, I realized, THAT WAS IN A DREAM!

OK. Say it. I'm saying it to myself, I've lost all track of what is happening in "real" life and what is happening in my "symbolic" life.

But I ask you, dear readers, are they not one in the same? Is not our dream life merely a reflection of our awake life? And while I didn't actually break someone's actual knife and don't need to actually replace it, I did break off the big, sharp, dangerous edge of something I was holding. It's gone. And I'm not replacing it.

Instead of duller for the loss of that sharpness, I am softer.

Instead of being less useful for cutting a crisp, clean line, I am better at gently cooperating with an object to get it to break loose. Less force, more cooperation.

Instead of less than without that leading edge, literally, I am more than.

Turns out I didn't need the "edge" I thought I did.

Less is more.

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Kathryn said...

One and the same, my dear - odd, but so true! No separation. Your entire experience lately has been so cool. A similar event happened to me in my life at one time when I was really doing the same kind of deep processing and transmuting, and the dreams and the lessons from them have stayed with me for years. Cherish them, knives and all.

Jerri said...

More of you....more of your writing is more.

More, please. This is LOVELY.

La La said...

I've actually done this before, too, where I thought I needed to do something when actually what had happened that I needed to respond to never HAPPENED in real life. . . It was something I dreamed. It blew me away trying to sort through why it all felt so real and so present when it wasn't -- or was it???

Kim said...

Beautiful. The word "lovely" came to my mind too! You make it seem simple, but I know how hard it is. Brava CP!

Eileen said...

I have had this experience before, where I question if I dreamed it or did it really happen? It is such a very thin veil. So much clearing work is done in our dreams. Our dreams are clearly trying to tell us something. Sometimes I have to meditate and reflect before I can figure out what the question was.

Love your much.

Dom Camara said...

When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. when we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality.

Kapuananiokalaniakea said...

WOOHOO!!!! In the words of one of my dearest friends "Take and A!!"
Let's hear it for a little less edge, a little less sharpness, a little more softness, a little more gentleness.

Michelle O'Neil said...

Strength in softness. I love it.

Gorgeous picture too!

Seeker said...

Dreams and wakefulness...both tools for getting at the truth. The trick is getting the messages. Sounds like you did! Excellent!

Go Mama said...

Really great post, C.

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