Thursday, April 03, 2008

SLEEPING LIKE/WITH A ROCK

I'm sleeping with crystals now. It's come to that. Slept with my new rose quartz last night, firmly wrapped into the palm of my right hand. My dreams were at an all-time high intensity. At one point in the night I got up, moved the crystal across the room and went back to bed. Alone. Enough is enough.

When I got up this morning I went straight to it and picked it up. It was "muggy" - a highly scientific word for clouded, heavy, not-clear. I gave it a little bath in warm water with salt, which is what I've been told you do to relieve mugginess. Now it's clear again and sitting right next to me.

I don't think I'll need to sleep with it tonight, but I did last night. Last night the cords I cut didn't feel very far away, they felt close and ready to spring right back around me out of habit, and I felt all too ready to let them.

Today I feel differently. I wouldn't call the change dramatic, I would call it subtle but present.

Subtle.

Present.

Not words I've ever used to describe myself, but the new Carrie? This third version? She wants to be those things.

Today I look for and appreciate subtlety.

Today I will be present.



If you'd like to do your own Cord Cutting Meditation, try this.

5 comments:

mamatulip said...

Awesome.

That's totally cool.

Deb said...

My admiration for you only grows! Be safe. Be well. Know you are loved.

marge said...

Sounds wonderful. Very, very cool.

Drama Mama said...

Beautiful.

No caffeine?

Anonymous said...

Maybe Fully Awake Carrie is good. I'm glad your rock is working so well. I collect heart shape rocks.
It's hard to believe how many there are in Oregon. Love your stories.