Wednesday, August 02, 2006

B-T-S
Best acronym ever, B-T-S, Back-to-School, problem is, I'm the one having all the first day of school nightmares. What's with that? I am neither a student, nor a teacher returning to the classroom in September, like so many Septembers before, but the dreams are coming in fast and furiously.
First there was the one that I was going into sixth grade with my daughter, but I was the mother. I made it half a day before throwing down my books and announcing to the class and teacher, "You know, People, I don't have to be here. I've been in 6th grade, I've even taught 6th grade, and my daughter is supposed to be in 7th this year, so ha!"
Then there was the dream where I was in college, I knew I had a full schedule, but I could never remember what all my classes were, or where I was supposed to be going. Each day I skipped at least two classes because I just didn't know enough about them. Hmmmm...
Last night I couldn't find all the parts to my test, and all the staples kept coming out. I wrote my name on every page, but that took up so much time I didn't have time to finish the test, plus someone kept singing, and I couldn't concentrate, and I just kept re-reading the same question over and over.
I was also part of some college group last night, not sure what, a sorority? A commune? A co-op? I don't know, but I was supposed to clear all the tables and take the dishes to the kitchen. Everytime I picked up an empty plate, someone said, "Hey! I'm not done with that!" Wow.
So, I guess what these dreams all have in common is my neurosis, my sense that I don't know what's going on, nor do I know what I'm supposed to be doing about the whole thing. OK, now I get it, those weren't dreams, they are metaphors for my waking life!

8 comments:

Suzy said...

Funny funny piece Carrie. I loved it!

kario said...

Well, at least you're having your dreams early so they don't coincide with the ones your kids will be having in a few weeks. I think that "metaphor" is telling you to pamper yourself today ;-)

Anonymous said...

Good boundaries girlfriend!

Dream #1 - You don't have to do anything unless you want to!
Dream #2 - You get to have all the facts before you have to decide whether of not you want to participate.
Dream #3 - The most important thing is to know who you are -- all other questions are really irrelevant.
Dream #4 - ...a mystery.

Anonymous said...

maybe you define yourself/vaidate yourself/are way to wrapped up in your "hfs self"?

Lee Wolfe Blum said...

Carrie-
Check out www.dreamdoctor.com and look under dream symbols. Looks like performance anxiety in your waking life. According to the site.
My thoughts...sounds like a great movie script you are writing in your dream!
L

Ziji Wangmo said...

I have a similar reoccurring dream - can't find my way to class, can't find my college class schedule -can't see to find my way to class - I'll check out dreamdoctor.com, maybe we have some issues!

Carrie Wanna Be said...

It's so funny, I am having all the EXACT same dreams...too weird, we are like...one person with one mind...

Reverse Stalker said...

See, that's the funny thing...all I do is have dreams where I am faced with a menu that lists hundreds of different teas...only they are in different languages and I'm so confused...what does it all mean?