LOSING THE STORY
Went to have my astrology read by a local (and good) astrologer yesterday. Think of her as my "second opinion." Robert Wilkinson that I recently mentioned, did a reading for me via phone nine months ago, and it kind of freaked me out. I haven't so much as checked the papers for my daily horoscope since. Cold turkey, I just stopped looking, listening. Denial.
Yesterday I walked in and the astrologer warmly greeted me, we sat down, she looked through me and said, "Well, I see why you contacted me. You're in a struggle. You've lost your story."
She went on to explain that for the first, and thank God the last time, in my life, Mercury and the Sun in my chart are so close together that the Sun is eclipsing Mercury. I can't see it. Mercury is the story teller. She tells you where you're going and how you're going to get there. I've historically always known where I'm going and how I'm going to get there. And I've done it. Directly.
I asked her if the fact that I'm 46, middle aged, has anything to do with the timing, but she assured me that this placement could have happened at any point in my life, and I just got "lucky" that Mercury is hiding at the exact same time I'm going through my second adolescence, my second identity crisis, my second coming of age.
From the moment she looked through me and continuing even now, I have had tears in my eyes. It's unsettling to have someone see you. It's weird to be that exposed. It's beautiful.
So, the bad news is I've lost my story.
The good news is, I've lost my story.
And the new one will emerge when it's good and ready.
And it will be unsettling.
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