Sunday, January 07, 2007


REVOLVING DOOR
I sit waiting, in a borrowed car, borrowed life, waiting. Eyes on the glass doors that swing and swing and swing. People entering the airport, people leaving. Side by side, partitioned by glass, divided by their destinations. Home. Away. Home. Away.
A deep sense of knowing that when my guest moves from inside to outside, circularly making his way to me, my life will be dramatically turned as well.
I don't know this man for whom I am waiting in my borrowed car and borrowed life. Both the car and life will one day be returned to their rightful owners. Tomorrow the car, "tomorrow" the life.
"Tomorrow never comes," my dad used to say. Funny words from a procrastinator.
This life that I wear is "mine," but it will go back to the creator at some point. What do I want from this life while I have it on loan?
Thoughts of limitless now fill my mind. Perhaps grandiose. Perhaps not.
"I am calm."
"I am trusting."
"I will gladly walk the path upon which I am placed."
These mantras are my company as the waiting and watching continues.
People outside go in. People inside go out. None of these are the one for whom I wait.
Another day they may have been. Not today. Today I am on the brink of a transition.
Old waiting to exit. New waiting to emerge.
Turn.
Turn.
Turn.

8 comments:

Jerri said...

Okay, I'm hooked.

Who are you waiting for? What is the transition?

More, please.

kario said...

God, Carrie! It's Sunday morning and my brain isn't on yet. Do you have to do a post like this that requires me to read it about 18 times?

I love this and I can't wait to sit in a quiet place (obviously not my home) and re-read it and feel that tranquillity. You are awesome, girl.

holly said...

gorgeous writing, carrie! LOVE it! Love the metaphore of the airport and waiting and coming and gping ans self. BEAUTIFUL!

Suzy said...

Seems to me this is your time. You will grab this transition and make it work with gratitude and love, the same way you approach everthing and everyone else. Couldn't happen to a better person.

Nancy said...

This is the first thing I read this morning and I have gone back to it several times. I loved "A deep sense of knowing that when my guest moves from inside to outside, circularly making his way to me, my life will be dramatically turned as well." So beautiful! I'm waiting on the edge of my seat for a follow-up!

Kim said...

That just gave me chills! I am on the edge of my seat!

jennifer said...

WOW! Love this!

Kristina said...

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