Monday, June 15, 2009


I thought I wanted to know what would happen on "Grey's Anatomy," and so I "cheated" and surfed the Internet until I learned ahead of time that George and Izzy would both be killed off.

Ruined the whole finale for me.

I thought I wanted to know what would happen with my book, so I consulted a really amazing astrologer. Twice. First time gave me a false sense of "knowing" that nearly crippled me, and then I went back for more. To be fair, if I really listened to the reading with ears wide open, I'd probably hear more "truth," but I have been listening for what I wanted to hear, and it's messed me up.

I thought I wanted to know what someone was saying about me behind my back, so I found out. Wrong. Much happier not knowing. There's a reason I have a back, and it's a good place for those conversations to take place.

I've decided I simply don't want to know what's coming around life's corner. I don't want to know if and when my book is going to get picked up. I don't want to know what people think about me, unless they feel the need to tell me directly. I just don't need to know a lot of things.

This I know.


Carnal Zen said...

They both die? See I think one of them gets revived - the question is only which one....

Greys' aside - there isn't really a choice but to surrender to the unfolding journey...somethims we just think there is ;-)

Angie Ledbetter said...

Here, here. (Or is it, "Hear, hear." ?? :)

jess said...

ok, i'd like to tell you directly what i think of you ..


take THAT

Wanda said...

"There's a reason I have a back, and it's a good place for those conversations to take place."

Brilliant. Wise. Funny. Poignant.

Ditto Jess.

Robin said...

That must have been rough. I also don't want to hear the second part of any sentence that starts with "I don't want to hurt your feelings, but..."

You are so brave to have even asked for the info. Believe that!

Michelle O'Neil said...


Me said...

Ummm....hello...where's the warning for us Grey's fans? Sheeshh!

PS Sorry people are saying yucky things behind your back.

pixiemama said...

1. I'm gonna pull a Jersey style coffee shop convo on anyone saying things behind your back.

2. I'm the same way. When the sucky psychic here told me this is a year of big change for me (which is as obvious as the need for Botox between my eyes and the gigantic garbage bags under my eyes) I thought I wanted to talk to a real psychic. Then, in LA, where they are a dime a dozen, I chickened out. The news could be good, or it could be bad. Either way, I'm not ready to hear it before it's time for it to be heard.

And ditto Jess.


Jerri said...

"There's a reason I have a back, and it's a good place for those conversations to take place."

Best line of 2009.

Tanya @ TeenAutism said...

Abso-freakin-lutely about the "need to know." When I let go of what I think I need to know, I feel so much freer. And I've got you to remind me to do it. Add me to the list of those who adore you. xoxo

Lola said...

Man, are you living in my head.....I HEAR you!

She said...

I was just thinking today, "I so thought I wanted this person back in my life, BUT I so don't."

Funny how that works.

I needed this post today! Thank you.

Amber said...

Yes. I agree. "What other people think about you is none of your business". I like that. I'll stick to it.

PS. I read Izzy is coming back. Not her time yet. ;)


Deb Shucka said...

The false sense of security we get from seeking knowledge bites the big one when we discover that knowing didn't really save us from anything at all.

I do know that you are a wonder of a woman whom I'm proud to call friend.