Monday, December 28, 2009

THE PRESENT OF PRESENCE

I'm a routine girl. Give me a routine and let me stick to it, and I'm a happy, happy girl. I'm out of my routine during this l-o-n-g winter break. Way out. So far out I can't see my routine from here. This happens every vacation and I fight it every time.

Historically.

This time I'm trying something new. I'm trying to detach from my routine, knowing it will be there waiting for me in seven (short!) days, and I'll be able to pick it back up and cloak myself in it soon enough. In the meantime there is a new routine to accept - the no routine, routine. The one where instead of doing laundry and emptying the dishwasher as my compulsive nature would so glory in, it has me playing Mario Kart on the Wii with Rojo before I've even had breakfast. It has me not making any plans so that I can go with the flow of the day as it unfolds, instead of forcing a clock on a day that has no sense of time. It has me walking by rooms that need cleaning, rugs that need shaking, gifts that need to be put away, and counters that need wiping. It has me walking away from what doesn't even matter in the scheme of things, and straight into the arms of what does.

Rojo looked at me yesterday after we'd been hanging together, spontaneously made the sign of the cross on his forehead, chest and shoulders while saying, "Cross my heart and never die, mother of Jesus."

I would have missed that if I'd been anywhere but right there.

9 comments:

Anonymous said...

Oh, my hell of God. Obviuosly you're doing what you should be doing. Enjoy the moment.

Deb Shucka said...

"It has me walking away from what doesn't even matter in the scheme of things, and straight into the arms of what does." I love this! So proud of you, and so glad for the presents you're receiving by being present.

Me said...

I'm right there with you sister.

Last night the husband said, "Oohh...hunny! You've got him home with you all week. I can't wait to see what YOU are going to be like in the evenings after having him all day."

Nice.

Wanda said...

Honest to hell...this is priceless! Love the flow. Praise be to Mary!

fullsoulahead.com said...

OMHOG.

Love.

Amber said...

Routine is good for the soul. But so is time spent with a little angel.

:)

drama mama said...

You know, I'm having a hard time with the mess, the lack of routine, the-the-RELAXING.

I'm glad you spoke my heart.

And that Rojo spoke it, too.

blackknightsbrood said...

I love for you that you were there.

kario said...

You never fail to inspire me.

Maybe I'll try this next year ;-)