Monday, April 20, 2009


Has enough been made that I went from fully caffeinated to very little caffeinated?? I am not really interested in becoming totally uncaffeinated, though. I have my "cup" (12 oz., give or take a few) a day with the perfect amount of 1/2 and 1/2, in the perfectly selected mug each day, and I am happy, happy and more happy.

So happy, in fact, that I ALMOST always think, just one more. What's so bad about just one more?

And usually I distract myself out of it by saying, "I can't have one now, but I can have one later. Maybe."

But there are days those little games don't work, and I go to the bother of making just one more "cup."

It's never as good as the first, and I almost never drink more than 2 sips of it.

As it grows cold and I then pour it down the drain, the perfect amount of cream sticking to the sides and looking icky now, I think, how many other things do I think I want, but really don't?

There is going to come a day when the coffee loses and I win. When I finish that cup of perfect joe and sit back, eyes closed, and bask in the perfection of it.

With gratitude.

And nothing else.

They say enlightenment comes at the end of desire. I figure if I can start with the coffee, it's downhill all the way.

* Photo from


Anonymous said...

I'll drink to that.

Cathy said...

that's really true--i tend to think more is better, when it's not, especially in terms of caffeine. ;)

Michelle O'Neil said...

We will never stop desiring. Perhaps realizing that is true enlightenment.

And no, not nearly enough has been made of your drastic reduction in all things caffeinated.

Jerri said...

The end of desire is a long, long way from where I am. Perhaps you have a map?

Wanda said...

Oh, yes. You are almost there.

jesswilson said...

i don't know. i think there's something to be said for desire.

maybe there's a happy medium. desiring just enough, and then appreciating and enjoying that which is achieved (or perfectly brewed). hmm. i think i'll go mull it over (another) cup.


jesswilson said...

btw, does this mean you have to change the name of the blog?

partially caffeinated, fully satisfied?


Deb Shucka said...

That's always the trick - knowing when enough is enough, and savoring what is. You model both really well.

Tanya @ Teenautism said...

Who can resist when it looks as good as it does in that pic? Yum!

Angie Ledbetter said...

Clinking coffee mugs with you.

Drama Mama said...


It's funny. My Dad was a raging alcoholic. When he decided to change (and change he did - whew!), he did not go to a 12 step, rehab, or even doctor.

He told himself, "I'm not going to drink today. Tomorrow, maybe. Not today."

He's done this for almost 30 years.

Doesn't even have the desire.

I love this post.

deb said...

I'm that way with coke and cookies and oreo ice cream bars, you get the idea.

pixiemama said...

I love this post, too. I love knowing that you're closer to fine by being better defined.


She said...

"Enlightenment comes at the end of desire."

I believe that, and we take it one desire at at time!

Jenny said...

I'm waiting for the same day. Been off coffee since Dec, and that drink crosses my mind about once every 20 minutes :-)