FORGIVE
Had a dream the other night that I was trying to light a Mary at someone else's house, but it wouldn't light. I looked more carefully and noticed it was not a candle, but a statue. My hand then bumped it and it fell over, but didn't break. I looked over at the person whose house I was in and said, "I'm sorry." They said, "It's okay." I then picked it up and found a small wick at the top of the statue, and was then able to light it.
Sent this dream off to my favorite dream interpreter, and she replied back that I was both the person trying to light the Mary, and the woman whose Mary was getting knocked down but not broken. And it was only through forgiveness that it/I/She was able to light.
Been thinking so much about that dream. No matter how many times I hear (and say) that our dreams are all aspects of ourselves, I still tend to think of them literally. In the dream I really wanted the forgiveness of another, but in my subconscious, I want the forgiveness of myself.
Amen.
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13 comments:
um, wow.
I will ponder this one , Carrie. Thank you.
HDR.
forgiving ourselves is the hardest part.
I just love that you can remember your dreams. Me--not so much. The ones I do remember are full of STRANGENESS. What does that say about me? I'm afraid to find out.
That message never changes. We have to start with our own hearts, give ourselves first what we need before we can receive it from others, or even give it very well. I love your dreams.
Hmmmm... Worth thinking on. Forgiveness in one of those things I think I will forever be working on :)
Woosh and Wow
I love to read about the workings of your mind -- it's so fascinating and beautiful and transparent and obtuse all at once.
I think that interpretation is spot-on. Not to mention gives a lot of food for thought.
Darling girl, please go reread your next post--the one about Rojo wanting to be a dad.
Forgive yourself. Light your Marys. Surround yourself with Light and Love.
Remember that as you seek the Light, you are the Light.
Love.
Powerful stuff Carrie. Never about the other is it? Damn it.
When you see it all as a cry for love, there is nothing to forgive.
Amen.
:)
I swear that that is the hardest kind of forgiveness.
Good luck. I hope you give it to yourself.
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